What I found I dont think I can deal with it

Ok I was buying something from a site online Friday, and a pop up came up that will change feelings and will scar my heart forever. Anyway most know I was with a guy for over five years and it was a bond that was like no other. The apple of my eye, the thread in my needle. But he was taken away from me and killed by a drunk driver. My world seemed no more, but what I have found has crushed my heart in tiny little bits. This pop up came on my computer as I was ordering something from a website, it was a pop up from an escort service, and a photo of the guy I was with was on there and I went to the profile and he had a secret life that I did not know about, he has been gone for 6 years now, the site says last time logged on was six years ago and some months and days. Why did he do this? How could I not found out about this? Why? It hurts just as bad as if he was alive and we was still together. We both traveled a lot for work, but still how could I not know about this? I know it is not a fake profile cause some of his clients are people we both known or I knew he knew. Why? I have been through so much hurt, so much pain, and delt with many losses family friends, how come I did not know about this? Why?

When he was killed I was a zombie for over a year, found out my father had lung cancer, and so I snapped out of hit cause I knew I had to be there for him and my mother. Then for my father to die, his heart exploding in my face at the dinning room table, then three months later watching my mom on life support to my one of my cousins being killed for another to die of cancer.. Its like I am in my own little world, and I feel I am buy myself, I already have a major issue of trusting people, I know this is going to make it even worse. Cause I was with him for over five years, and he was ling to me, was cheating on me, and that bound was never there for real, was just on my end and I guess no thought of his.

What is this Tea Party Shit...

I had to logg in to ask what is up with all this tea party shit?? No one has a right to disrespect our current President and past President Abe Lincoln like that. This tea party shit is just another way to express hate. I call it shit, cause that is all it is a big piece of SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Our President has did more for the wellness of our country in less than two years, than Bush did in eight years in office. See Bush only focused on the wars that was going on, and not our country, but Obama has a war going on, and trying to get people home from a old war zone, and taking care of our country. Its called multi tasking.....
Then you know what I hate when people like the elephnat party get up say on health care, that the President is going about this the wrong way......... WELL HOLD UP WAIT A MINUTE... Your way must be by doing nothing, because that is what you all have been doing NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!! If you can not work together for the b...etter of our country, then sit down and shut up, you had eight years of doing nothing..

Well it was a great weekend.....

Well I did have a great weekend in Las Vegas, even though I did not do what I went for but never the less I had a good time, I blogged a question my last post, I most time don't care, but I guess that this time I was not up for dealing with it.. But it was my first time in the city, and I really enjoyed myself for the most part... I will add photos when I get home.... But off to Chicago now.

I LOVE MY NEW PHONE

I love my new phone and my Verizon.... The best service world wide

Why does someone or group go out of there way....

I am not going to get into too much detail about this, but why does a person or group of people, want to make you look like an outcast or like give you the eye that why the crap are you here, you don't belong here. I really don't get it, I am not not ashamed of me or ashamed of where I go or I really don't care if you don't want me here or not, cause guess what? I AM HERE, SO TUFF BANANAS..... Just want to get your feed back.....

Piranha Nightclub Las Vegas This Weekend

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